Family first (h)

 Because there mother
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mother heard from her sister there, felt unwell recently, and often feel chest tightness, chest pain, to the hospital to check the results, suffering from coronary heart disease. My mother to let me worry about, has been without telling me. learned the news after work, I Lianmang Gan home to see my mother.
quiet at home, my mother sitting on the sofa, while with a small sliced water chestnuts, watching my daughter do homework, because busy with work, her mother has to take care of. the spirit of her mother looks really bad, I did not disturb them, and directly into the kitchen.
Zecai, vegetables, roll up their sleeves cooking, the kitchen, in addition to snapping the cooking sound, the cry of my incessant:
vegetables have been turned out I! Oil spilled on my foot, too hot to my feet tingling. the pain, I finally stopped yelling. Why is my mother I have everything here so strange? where the kitchen, I touched a few times, how has Here the nerve to fuss?
shut up, I quietly make the meal, her mother and daughter to dinner. watching them delight in eating dinner, I do, I'm supposed to be happy, but suddenly felt sorrow and grief, before I do too little.
After dinner, I clear the table, wash dishes. In the past every home, my mother never let me do this, give me the reason is fear of dirty my beautiful clothes. In this regard, I feel like I have never much thought about what peace of mind accepted. In fact, now own up, easily, where it will get dirty!
accompanied her mother to watch TV, chat, Unconsciously, it was already late. my mother worried about the safety of my home, repeatedly urging me to go, but I really do not want. Fortunately, the little girl cried to me to accompany her to play more for a while, I am keen on the idea down, because of this, I You can also sit at home and more. daughter and I started playing the.
night wore on and had to say goodbye with her mother, in the phrase balcony. terrace sky, stars, every one can see it so clear. After a lotus pond, I actually heard several more crisp frogs. bursts of breeze blowing, the smell of flowers with mountains , the taste of grass, and leaves the taste is so sweet, so sweet. long time no such pleasant feelings, which are derived from my mother today to make a meal, the original feeling is so good!
must be Huijia look, because there mother!
(from non-fish
few months ago, I anxiously waited at the hospital bed of stars, the beautiful daughter was suffering horrendous chemotherapy, hair loss a lot a lot a day, all adverse reactions were pain and struggle.
stars realize that they actually died from so close, the cry, uttered, can see that I could not sleep all night, all night, see my bloodshot eyes and cheeks deep down, she calm to accept this fact. She said:
I looked, could not stop the tears to fall, why such a fate would fall on us.
I decided to do bone marrow test to see if the stem cells match the stars. In order to see the doctor to the stars, have spent over all the savings at home, high testing costs, for me, is not a small overhead. Someone asked me to donate blood center to do the sampling, once the stem cells into the blood bank will be able to quickly know whether the stars of the match. So I take long trips to the city's Red Cross Blood Center, the signing of a bone marrow donor volunteers the book, and gave blood samples.
I firmly believe that their own bone marrow to save her daughter's life, the stars also rekindled Health belief that time was a long suffering, waiting for the blood center's phone every day, whether eating or sleeping regarded mobile phone at hand, call into my only lifeline.
week later, the blood center has finally hit calls, I was so excited that some dizziness, trembling, press the answer key, the phone side of the doctors is also very excited, but she did tell me that my bone marrow and a sick-year-old boys are completely matched.
how ? not the stars? and the stars of the match, and I'm her mother! hum in my head big, can not accept this fact, how could it not with the stars accompanied by a strange boy with matches? My daughter how to do, she was also waiting for good news then!
Yang looked at her eyes full of hope, I several times, then to the mouth, are swallowed back abruptly, I lied, said her daughter asked to call the blood center's aunt Q. What after bone marrow side effects. She said it pumping bone pain, If I had known, do not let my mother go. Faced with such a thoughtful daughter, I could not help the tears.
Blood Center's work who played several times gave me, I gradually calmed down, the status of herself and her daughter told them that I really wanted to help the boy, but the stars of the situation is so dangerous, I am afraid to leave her too.
bone marrow donor to last 10-15 days, the whole process, it means that so long I can keep in her daughter, the stars of the body has been extremely weak due to chemotherapy, the drug at any time could allow her complete collapse of the hematopoietic system, perhaps when I Helping other children, the daughter would never sleep, and in the absence of the next person, accompanied by her mother to leave alone.
phone does not come off, but I fell into a deep unease, it seems there is always a little voice in the ears: was asked: The tears soon flowed, she said: ;
daughter cry my heart was broken, her head was kept in the yard, the body shaking violently, I hugged her, and cried: but not sleep, could not sleep all night, began to worry about the fate of the boy. until one day, my phone rang again and saw a bunch of strange numbers, I know, calling the parents of the child .
the original staff of the Red Cross center can not be persuaded me, but they think I am a good person, but is a good mother, distressed that their sick daughter, would surely be willing to help another child the same thirst for life, so risking punishment in violation of regulations, contact me to the boy's family, hope they change my decision.
side of the phone is also a mother, she was crying and begged me not donate, just pleading, visibility a plane? We know what your daughter, what we must not luxury, just want to see you, okay?
Her voice was light very light, I am fully able to appreciate her careful, too cautious Let me sad, hold her son's life in my hands, if not too dangerous because of the condition of the stars can not get away, I will not hesitate to promise donors.
sky day with light rain, the wind was blowing cold I caressed her daughter's little face, watching the rain hit the windows, the outside is a dark gray sky, but also for the boy could not help but worry about them. when nurses hurry come to me, makes me go downstairs to see Look.
in hospital at the door, I was a sight that shocked, young and old kneeling over the ground, enough to have a dozen people, rain their clothes and hair were wet, so they kneel in the cold rain, the devout, looking at me.
my tears fall down, as was a daughter of a strange illness clung to children, I blame the deeply he is also a mother, how to not experience the pain of other family members do to so ruthlessly crush the hope of a child was born, crush the hope of so many loved ones.
I followed them to see the boy, his thin face, a pair of large particularly bright eyes, the children did not cry, just sat there watching me nice and gently called out, tears of loved ones.
back to her daughter, I paused, and touched the stars sparse hair, heart, such as mess. the stars at last, and peace have struck me. She said: to rescue the brother, and I would make a good stick, waiting for mother to come back! no slept a good sleep, I can not stop my mother decided rescue, but not for their own students to lose hope that his younger brother.
I carried my daughter burst into tears, I suddenly felt her daughter grew up, her daughter's heart actually so beautiful.
settle the stars, I embarked on a long car, and before leaving asked me like a daughter like an adult pay attention to safety and gave me a calm smile, when I trance, and that her daughter is star is the most beautiful sky.
I do not see the boy's family, directly admitted to the ward bone marrow donor, that night, slept a practical sense.
to continuously play the next seven days, , I quickly feel myself pain, abdominal catch up, to vomit three times a day, while on the toilet, and shivering violently, to take a good while leaning on the wall.
but these I do not care, the wound can survive a small pain, I wanted to return to her daughter as soon as possible, without me, she did not know whether we can survive the pain of chemotherapy. handset has been placed on the body, I'm afraid that the music suddenly sounded, it was said, my star forever fell asleep, then a few days for me is a long and tortured as hell Yeah.
Four days later, I completed the first procedure of the donor, the next step is bone marrow. Strange to say, surgery stage I can not feel any pain, just very anxious waiting for the completion of surgery. The doctor said to rest after two days. two days? how the luxury of waiting, I can no longer stand it that long two days, lying half an hour to rush back foot long car, only to find two black, so weak, I think, is also quickly climbing back to her daughter.
stars see me, can not help crying She gently stroked my big mouth blisters, tears fall down kept.
I donated bone marrow to the boy to regain his life, his family to fifteen million as compensation, in good conscience, I really need the money, and I seized, I know that one hundred and fifty thousand children with leukemia for a what it means to working families.
good turn deserves another, God will always favored good people, do not wait for the stars bone marrow match with her, but that one ten thousandth of a cure leukemia by chemotherapy, one of the lucky ones. Now I have a thick black stars, healthy and beautiful.
Postscript: I remember in an interview with Li Jia said this to say: At that time I thought, no matter the outcome of her daughter, I have not unworthy of their own conscience. I believe everyone has a conscience of the scale, it is no miracle return for more than money and made us feel at ease.
(Zebian / Hung to soldiers) From: : Non-fish angel eyes
ONE
I do not like hospitals. Every time I pass through the corridor, sniffing the smell of the hospital, I felt depressed. It's not just the breath of formalin, which was filled loneliness, pain, despair, their in-depth bone marrow, that I detest myself. but I had no choice, I am a nurse here.
I work in renal medicine. a long vacation, I once again into the hospital, going into duty room, I suddenly saw a little girl ran out of panic, the hands seemed to grab something. I quickly catch up, a press and hold her. she was so thin, contrary to my expectation, and baggy clothes, blue bar to droop on his shoulder, Kujiao stained with mud spots. She struggled a few times, turned his head in dismay, looked up and looked at my dirty face. look at her appearance, only about eight or nine.
me clearly, she was clutching an empty bottle bit by bit. I quickly taken away from him, accidentally ran into her hand, her mouth twitching about, could not resist a breath, when I noticed, She has a long back of the hand wound. My mother in the hospital. for a moment, close to the door she whispered: pain, can my father do not want us, and I accompanied her medical treatment. tears, but forced smile and said: eyes. but I hate hospitals, I do not want to spend their youth in their colorful here. I'm half smiling, and asked: go to school. . I pulled her arm into her smeared water on the back of the hand, she was hard to sniffle, I thought she was hurt, they slow down the action. said with a smile.
I feel her head and said: I said: unsanitary, are used by others. but suffering from uremia, Mei's father suddenly left home, since no news.
I know, Xiaomei mother's life, one can only rely on the blood of dialysis a few days, and renal transplantation required more than a dozen million in operation costs, they barely scrape together some seven or eight million gap can not be filled.
TWO
Since then, I can see Mei every day, she always wall-standing, carefully looked at everyone. I know what she was afraid she was afraid her mother was out of the hospital.
she regarded me as a straw, to make every effort to please me, and if showing a little tired of my face, she as done wrong, become anxious. Sometimes I think, for this poor child, maybe I should pretend to be happier.
Mei bed most of the time sitting on her mother, holding her mother's hand, whispered with mother speech. in front of mother, she reveals little sad expression, her effort to laugh, to adapt to life.
mother and eat only bread and pickles every day at noon, Xiaomei, he exclaimed: I just saw the man next door to the house to eat sausages. : ran over and said loudly: the. It was a woman in their thirties, but was extremely old and haggard, and seems to crash, but she persisted, for her daughter.
Mei took the pen back to ward, pulled her mother's wrist, first drew a blue circle, and drew some marks, then lift the mother's arm and excitedly said to me: , like a withered branch. Xiaomei holding mother's hand tightly, blue picture frozen in the moment, the world retreated as if behind them.
I am very sad day. This feeling never before. Sometimes I think, perhaps a selfish person will be less painful, at least, others can increase the pain in her soul. However, this is a sad harvest, it makes me feel warm while the power, that is winding suffering little girl who was full of this power.
go to work, I gradually had a look, to see Mei and her mother, to see no hope of life when they face a strong smile. I have to learn to laugh with them, and they became my flesh and blood relatives, their fate is my fate like.
boyfriend that I recently became another person, before the mood dark, tired of depression Women gradually disappeared, and he did not understand where I come from the change. I tell him the story of Mei, but he seemed indifferent. Yes, he can move is not an easy man to face his daily customers, even smile is cold.
sometimes he came to the hospital to find me, and I pointed out the window and said to him: a certain amount of the toxin did not break out, he will be very painful, once after hemodialysis, and healthy people do not look much different. After each dialysis, Xiaomei thought a good mother, the mother should like to make happy her to see.
However, Xiaomei finally came to understand that this is only going into a dream. wake up, the mother will be lying in bed, like to die the same. She can do nothing with his young mind can only take All this, and cherish every dream.
THREE
their wandering in the winter sun, looking for every warm corner until the evening comes. more cold northern winter, just after the December cold invasion of the city. Xiaomei often strayed outside the hospital, I guess she went to the garbage out. One evening after work, she whispered back, I stopped her.
asked. She bent her head, hands and back to the back and chill. I knelt to touch her face: like a leaf. eyes wide open in horror: her into the duty room. mother ah? to her feet, she suddenly uneasy, and hurried from the table and jumped down, ran out. I took her hand, she struggled to get rid of me. I tried hard to lift her feet, she was wearing shocked mm socks, green white ankle now was not a trace of heat, like the frozen bark.
a sudden, I do not know what to say, my lips trembling, his throat burst into sobs. Xiaomei whispered: could not stop. She comforted me: Day is coming soon. Xiaomei look more and more desperate mother, and she did not want to make no use in the hospital. each dialysis costs money, and kidney transplantation in sight. I often saw her arm around Mei, empty eyes, the tears flow out yet already evaporated.
Mei is unusually strong. That day I went to the 402 wards, first came to the door, heard her mother: After your body will slowly grow up. in my ear, yes, even if she has realized that her mother's life is about to fall into hopeless despair, she will support with a firm belief that every minute, she smiled to her mother, even if only a brief moment, but also turned to the eternal memory.
FOUR
Christmas Eve, Mei's mother died. I went into the ward, Xiaomei still holding her mother's arms, she was very quiet. Then, suddenly, she turned looked at me: cheek: The operation, until one day I saw her boyfriend also appears in the collection box before. we to smile. If an ordinary person can change the fate of others, it is very noble. I would say, is changed Mei our destiny, at least, she let me have faith.
Until now, whenever I encountered difficulties in low spirits, I will think of Mei large eyes, so clear and bright, still so persistent in the face of despair, firm, it is the angel eyes.
(Zebian / side)
From: hit from the time I can remember, my grandmother always took the needle and thread sewing colorful shoes. mother said, before primary school, I have been wearing the shoes are Grandma. I have a pair of pretty feet, delicate and pretty small, well-balanced white, her mother said This is the grandmother of shoes for a pet. Grandma shoes suitable elastic, soft, comfortable, good air permeability. But I was 7 years old to wear such shoes because they made fun of by classmates, a row with the grandmother.
vaguely remember, it was a cold winter day, we a gang of female students outside the classroom after school to stomp heating. a female student wearing a pair of pure white boots, there are even cartoons, it is eye-catching. students are surrounded over to see her shoes, I also surrounded the past. I do not know who suggested that we extend the foot, the most ugly shoes than anyone else. I was wearing Grandma's red cotton shoes with hair, had a little bit ashamed, did not dare stretching out her feet to, but why a classmate pointed at me shouting: face was very red, feet in shoes at a loss.
grandmother picked me up from school that day, I cried and cried not to pick her. grandmother asked me how, I told her I wear the shoes were classmates as the most ugly shoes, I could not wear her ugly shoes. grandmother was silent, and never gave me a cotton-padded shoes, single shoes, sandals, but at home she wears a pair of slippers, then give me a pair of do. From then on, I began to wear from the store to buy shoes, sneakers, sandals, though not before wearing comfortable, but they are nice, some vain for a very young age for me, is the most important.
11 years old, an accident so my grandmother made a new understanding of the shoes. It was a summer evening, my grandmother wearing a pair of slippers do play in the alley. At this time, the alley to a group of people , including two foreigners, and a woman. It is next door to talk to Hu grandmother tourism. Hu Grandma is here, the resident committee, she said that many foreigners like to visit our alley, so we have to dressed, but also polite. she saw the slippers on my feet and asked me to come home for. But when I turned around and go home, then she stopped. Originally, the foreign guests to see my feet slippers, very interesting. It was a pair of embroidered satin slippers, shoe, and emerald green shades on a bronze Xieshen the branches, stood on the two branches of black and white magpie, also embroidered shoes as a dense pattern like seaweed. blond girl put up thumb as he says an aunt bent down to ask me who made shoes, Hu grandmother rushing, said: to my house. a group of people to my house, the grandmother of the acacia trees in the yard is very calm and quiet manner to the upper sub-embroidery. She slowly put down the needle and thread, be greeted guests. The two foreigners looked at Grandma's three boxes of shoes After the buyout to the U.S.. Specifically how much money I do not remember, but remember that Hu said the grandmother, the two shoe boxes can be installed for all of our home appliances of the. we were very poor family, Mom and Dad's factory wages are often not open, home appliances in addition to a gift of a 21-inch old TV, that is, a rice cooker. I did not expect the three boxes I have always been dismissive slippers could be so much worth, I was so excited heavily. But it is intended think that the grandmother actually do not agree to sell. two foreigners and left shaking his head with regret, Hu grandmother and many watch the neighbors exclaimed my grandmother doomed to poverty forever.
Mom and Dad came back, I Qi Gugu to complain to them. In fact, they entered the alley, report heard this big news. That night, I heard came from my parents bedroom brawl. The next morning, my father did not eat breakfast on the to go out. I saw my grandmother like a child does something wrong to stand in front of red eyes of the mother, said: son to wear to my daughter, my granddaughter wear left, leaving the children to wear granddaughter hh Years later, I muddle by a little girl grow into a slim young lady. grandmother old, gray hair, micro Tuozhuo Bei, wearing thick reading glasses, sewing start to not so agile, and But she was always go-between for many years. She made a full five shoe boxes have been positive, but this time I have with her are not willing to wear slippers. I have a beautiful and fashionable female college students, eager to elegant high-heeled slippers, massage slippers, fashionable and cute cartoon slippers, slippers grandmother look like an ugly duckling just as miserable lie in a group of proud White Swan. then praised by foreigners point of pride that has been modern life is changing gradually submerged.
freshman winter break back home that year, my mother insisted upon their grandmother made me a pair of cotton-padded shoes and a pair of cloth slippers, I picked up from the luggage out of the package. my mother would curse me No one wanted to forgetting the hard wing, also spend money at home so hard, I really do not know any better. grandmother Hangchikengchi to come, said: can not call her to lose face. was. But I live on 400 yuan a month to meet a fixed learning costs for meals and have some difficulties, day laborers earn only RBI for the occasional beautiful, I love to spread the point of imitation version of Amoy clothing and accessories. now to gather a MP3 Ministry of the worst grades also have half the money does not buy clothes. to six months, maybe this stuff is already tired of by others. I always liked fashion, of course not far behind. When only one besides me there is no MP3 roommate also happily took home a understanding the difficulties at home ; than pigs and dogs. how about not understanding the situation of her daughter outside ah!
that summer I did not go home, except with Mom and Dad fit of anger, would like to earn money to buy MP3. that day, I've just finished counseling a student in English at home tired back to the school dormitory, I heard someone knocking at the door. is in the alley out to work the Tao son. I was going to ask how he found here, behind him saw a little figure, is my grandmother. home, she stopped bugging me to come see you want me to take her, depriving the rest of my holiday did not end hh said: plucked out of a roll of money, into my hand, said: yuan, the corner of the corners also many, money is very old, but was spread neatly. usually accumulate on the hh wrong! often inappropriate to wear flat shoes. bosses more than once warned me to pay attention to their image, I took a pair of shoes to the company. In addition to entertainment, are still stubbornly flat to wear a pair of embroidered shoes.
day, the company has come a customers without an appointment position, and I hurriedly got up and went to the cupboard to find high heels, but in the confusion of the customer's foot step. I kept saying sorry. clients have graciously smiled and said: dirty shoes ... you fine